Tom and Jerry

Saturday, October 14, 2006 ' 9:09 AM

today today today!!!

hey yesterday morning i went to the leadership course first part which is 8am to 1ipm is about public speaking den the second half which is from 12 to 3pm its about building relationship!!! thoughts filled my mind thinking about her!!! den after the course i went home and watch TFKC haahaa...... den in the evening, i did something to help my mum because my mum called my sis so many times and my sis is so busy playing com so i shouted at her like how i shouted at PC when he said about the GB girls i am just protecting their innocent!! ok nvm... den my mum and sis was shocked my mum jumped up and my sis due to over shock she cried!!! den todae 2 things bad happened to really really piss me off making me to cry haahaa.... firstly is my maid that one long story den the other is my dad! he sort of insulted me in dilect 1st time i still ok den second and third still ok 4th time i getting abit pissed still calm den the 5th time i cant take it, i punched the coffee table, stopped wad i am doing and went upstairs!! but hey!! i hab learned to control my anger thx to the course today haahaa.... cat- killer!! if u wan to ne the story call me ba!! i toook a breather and relax because in 2 hours time they are leaaving for korea and the house is mine!! o yes today they left at about 9.29pm!! den i cheong go buy THINGS!!! haahaa.... den come back den play audition den watch TFKC again den slack!!! haahaa.... todae wad my dad did really rub salt into my wound u noe??

U noe how i feel dad?? i feel like dun regard u as my dad u noe the sadness and humiliation a week ago already allows me not to talk to u for the rest of my life le and today!!! i can dun talk to u for ever!! its enough le dad!!! i had it!! u noe dad wad am i like in school?? u noe i am being stepped on in class u noe that?? i nvr tell this to anyone but now i am telling it to u dad!! u noe in class i am the arse licker i just quietly being pushed around and still helping them!! den dad u noe in BB i also feel very sad its like every training, every time i see a BB boy it pierce my heart so deeply until i cant raise my head? u noe now in BB i am so afraid until i cant speak up?? i just hab no more pride no more myself!! den i also hab to quietly being pushed around!! den u noe wad?? u noe how izzit to be humiliated at home by u, being buillied and humiliated in class and lost of inner pride in BB?? i can call myself nothing!! but dad u just one small problem shout at me and humiliate me until so badly and most of all you r my dad no any one else!! u noe or not?? u noe as i type i am crying?? dad hab i ever screamed at u showing you all my anger and sadness?? NO!! wad i do?? i lock myself up and cheer myself up and endure more of this things in future!! can u for once do this?? i hab no problem suffering and being treated like dirt but there is always a limit! people will get hurt, ppl will get depressed!! all along i argue with my sister u always supported her?? u noe that?? its ok i noe that i am not yr real son!! i know that!!! plz!! wan me go down on my knees?? u noe how i tell myself not to gve up? i always tell myself once i give up means everything is gone and i do not want to loose the girl i like!!! dad u really hurt my heart so deeply!! i know 1 week nvr talk to u le but i cant put myself together!! the injury its too big!!sorry dad i just cant!!! i wont blame you dad because you got so much work to do!! dad u noe y i dowan go korea with you?? is that i dowan to make things worse i dowan to turn a holiday sour like any other holiday!! by not talking to you i find that you found more peace in the house!! dad thats the truth that y i dowan go korea! its not tht i want to go BB or stuff its i dowan you to spoil yr holiday!! dad you also can save $$!! see killed 2 birds with one stone!! i donnoe how u feel but dad this is how i feel!!! u noe i want to find who is my real dad

Tom&Jerry are loved :D